Again it happened

Again it happened. But this time I didn’t loose my consciousness.

I never thought that I might ever meet someone as wise and beautiful that I would even wish to marry. If I search for a person with qualities like that of yours, I would never succeed even if I spend my entire life. You are ethereal, exquisite. Wise, sage. There is no doubt in it. Your religious views and commitments have always inspired me. Perhaps you were for me. Or perhaps it has been my fallacy.

I’m not sad to hear that you’re already engaged. I was not shocked, may be I was already prepared for this, or may be I have learned the lesson of life. The greatest lesson: To pretend. Yes, from the outside I smiled as if nothing happened, but inside my body was trembling when you voiced to those bitter words. My mouth started to utter all fake just to camouflage the inner me. And I did good! I disguised my feelings and you fell for the prey, maybe it was better for us to be this way.

But, it wont last long. One day or the other, you will find it out because its difficult to hold it. I can’t pretend for, not for long. No. So I might say it someday when I’d loose control. So, I’d request you to be prepared, and be nice as you have always been.

 

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She has gone

Hey Lord. I love you. If I dont than I want to love you. I really do. And one day and that day is not far I will love you like nobody has ever or perhaps I should say no body will ever. 

I didn’t get it my Lord. Your plan and your beautiful script for me its so difficult to understand whats written on it. I never wished to fall again. Not even if she is a better lady this time. I do not want to witness this again I’ve already endured it. I’m not ready to face it again. Despite this, I unwittingly am falling for this lady. Please Lord help me in this I want to get out of it. But sometime I feel like I’ve already fell for her.

I dont know about her. And perhaps I donot want to know about her. But sometimes I feel like I want to know about her. Its so difficult my Lord. Help me. Help me. I really need ur help. But now she has gone. She has gone to meet You to Your House this month. You’d be happy right? But what about me. How am I gonna live this month? Without her.

Lord. Why did u even make me meet her. I did not wanted to happen this again.I can not face it. Its difficult. Yet this hidden feeling inside me says that she is beautiful and I cant deny this. Still I dont need this. I’m confused. Help me my Lord.

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I’ve loved you

To the fullest I’ve loved you.

In my life the next thing after the Holy Book is this statement. With all my heart, with all my soul and with all my existing conscious; I’ve written this. It’s not my past experience or my prophecy. Trust me, I don’t even know the rationale behind this. I’m only aware of a mysterious force that inevitably rejuvenates our disguised intimacy within me.

I know that you won’t believe it. You may think that I’m pretending, or its just an infatuation, or that I’m lying or even that my life is so idle that I’ve nothing to do except to disturb you. But trust me, it’s because of this feeling that I possess for you. Only you.

Yes, I know that you hate me for this reason, but let me tell you that I love the way  you hate me.

Thank you for being whoever you are. Thank you for glowing up my life. I love you.

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Just for once :'(

Unable to measure the intensity, my feelings for you are now inexorable. The more I try to forget, the stronger it becomes. I am totally overwhelmed by this unwitting fallacy. Now that the idea of getting over is proved futile, the only alternative is to comply with it.

I know exactly where these feelings would take, and the innumerable hardships that I would have to pass by. I know it’s not an easy way, yet its not impossible.My reach is beyond the pinnacle of endurance even further and beyond since my wings get stronger day by day.

Perhaps the most regrettable facet is my unawareness of your philosophy regarding me. I wish I could know how you feel and think about me. I had always intended to talk you not like those teenagers in our generation,but in a completely different way where my ultimate respect for you worship your very existence and nothing goes beyond our LORD’s commandment. Not more than two minutes. That’s it.That’s all I wanted.

With all the courtesy I could summon, I request you once again to please talk to me. Nothing related to my feelings. But this time for the last time. I wont talk much. I just want to meet you, one last time.

I plead

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Its over now

Its over now.

This force is fading away. And I’m not sad about it. May be this ignorance of mine is unacceptable, but i don’t care. I don’t care what will the society call me. I don’t care if any of my friends criticize, or be it any of her friend.

Albiet, I’d never foreseen it yet I’ve somehow accepted it. I hope that it turns out to be good for my life ahead.

I know that this fact will be a major theme in my life’s history because now its impossible to hide.  Whatever, it’s now over. Yes it is.

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Miss you !

Dear,

I miss you. Immensly. I dont know why, but I honestly do. It wont make any difference to you, but still this longliness is killing me. I’ve tried every single method to talk you, to meet you, to make you realize my feelings but all in futile. I know that if you meet me only for once, you’d understand my situation, and you’d fall for me the way I have. Please let me just for once.

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One last time

Hey how are you? Hope everything is fine.

Yes I know that I’ve told this to you before as well, I couldn’t help myself but to tell you again. I love you. I really don’t know what does that statement literally means, but that’s how the society claims whenever it is in the position in which I am. As of yet I haven’t found any word through which I can display my feelings that I possess for you. Neither do I know any other means other than words.

People say that it is not my real feelings rather it’s just an infatuation. I don’t know if they are correct. What I know about infatuation is that it is short lived unlike that of mine to which almost 4 years have passed. Maybe for some this period is short.

Perhaps the most regrettable facet is my unawareness of your philosophy regarding me. I wish I could know how you feel and think about me. I had always intended to talk you not like those teenagers in our generation,but in a completely different way where my ultimate respect for you worship your very existence and nothing goes beyond our LORD’s commandment. Not more than two minutes. That’s it.That’s all I wanted.

With all the courtesy I could summon, I request you once again to please talk me. Nothing related to my feelings. But this time for the last time. I wont talk much. I just want to meet you, one last time.

I plead

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